Posted by Keri Starr at 4:02 PM 0 comments
ahh so this past week has been mucho fun for me.
last saturday i went with smb to the tackett house and had dinner...it was very very good.
sunday i worked and then took the mom grandma and aunt out to alejandros for dinner...was really really good.
monday i babysat ty, who was a tad bit hyper but was fun!! we went to chuck e cheese, then left early and stopped by bratchers and she got some sugar free sorbet and i talked to JM who happened to be there with the boys, that was fun as well because Ty got to play with them. I talked to Trent and Derek for a bit, took Ty home, then went back and got some ice cream. Ant came and met me there then we went back to her house and watched some tv.
Tuesday i hung out with dexter then went with shanna to anne's and met her and her family. then shanna and i had dinner.
wednesday...i started to feel really really bad on wednesday and was having a lot of pain. so i slept all night.
thursday i didnt feel too great when i went to work, but i did anyway. i attempted to eat a wrap but my stomach just wasn't feeling it. so i ended up only eating like a quarter of it. well needless to say i didnt eat anything else that day. on the way to rhythm i started feeling really sick and just figured it was becasue i hadnt ate. i ate a few things but nothing was seeming to agree with me.by the time i went to bed my stomach felt HORRIBLE. but i wasn't having the severe pain that i was having the day before.
friday i woke up and some how managed to get myself to work. i only stayed there an hour and a half. i went home and went to sleep. i even made myself a doctors apt...which for me is a big deal because i hate going to the doc and that's usually my last resort. if i can find a way to take care of something on my own, then i will usually go about it that way.
so i get up to go to the doc, and realize there is no way i am going to be able to drive myself. deb deb came and picked me up. so i go in and i have the same lady that i had when i had the cyst in my belly button. well she kept doing the oddest things...she was pecking my stomach with her knuckle around and around in circles. then she started pressing around and there were two spots that i said hurt. so she started pressing them both continuously saying so this hurts, yes, so this hurts, yes....apparently once she started pressing really hard i almost kicked her...i dont remember, it's just what i was told. then we go for a blood test. everything came up normal. which is a good thing. just now they are not 100% sure what it is. i asked if i could still go to nd...and they said as long as i wasn't throwing up.
so now...that leaves me with tomorrow. i have to go at 9am and have an ultrasound done on my gall bladder.
i really dont want to miss this mission trip. i know that God is going to be doing big things in new orleans and north dakota, and i dont want to miss out. i signed up for this trip becasuse i felt God telling me to go to nd. i didnt even know anyone else was going. then once i found out shanna was i was even more excited. but now, it just seems as if it is all going away. i just want everything to work out tomorrow....
Posted by Keri Starr at 11:24 AM 0 comments
So i decided that i really needed to make some goals for this year....
*The first one is a big one for me, and that was to pay off my car. I achieved that this past friday when i made my FINAL payment on the AVEO!!! I have been working on that for 5 years and i am so glad it is done(actually a few months early too!!)
*The second is along the same lines, and it's to pay off my two credit cards. I got them when i was 18, and have been working on paying them off for the last year. This is the prime reason i do not support credit cards. I was responsible with mine, and only used them for emergencies and school, but the interest rates are ridiculous!!! So my goal is to have them paid off be the end of august.
*I want to finish my study of the old testament.
*I want to get involved into a christian community again. I have rhythm, but there is still something that is missing.
I know there were more that were in my head earlier. I just can't remember them now. There will be more to come.
*Go back to school.
Posted by Keri Starr at 10:31 PM 0 comments
i've honestly been happier in the last week but not at the same time...
i'm really not sure how that works...but for me it is right now.
regardless, the last week has been GREAT! Even with everything going on, it is still amazing!! I've trained sara and she is doing GREAT! I am sooo sooo soo happy!! God has def. answered my prayers for another manager! I def needed someone to take over my sundays so i could get back to church, and He provided. Not that i doubted He would, i just wasn't expecting it to be 2 weeks after i had been praying about it. Even when we first starting closing, i was like..wow she is supposed to be ready by next week?!? and she is! I know she is going to do great tonight without me!
anyway...so this week has been weird for me in other ways...so almost two years ago me and JAC broke up. I've been cool with it. I was hurt with the circumstances as first...but i was over it, i took a long time before i started dating again, and all of that. But for some reason this week has been particularly hard. May 30, 2009 was going to be "the" day. yes that's right, 2 weeks from now. but it ended. it was over. so instead when he proposed just a year after they started dating...well officially anyway, i never would have thought that he would get married a month before we were supposed to. the colors were our colors.
i shouldn't be bothered by this. im trying to not be. i dont want him. but WHY?!? why now? why those colors? i mean i know she may have liked them too...but really??? i'm glad he's happy...and i'm glad he has all that he wants, because i was never going to become the girl that he wanted me to be.
but i think this is also why i just dont want to deal with my more current relationship. i was more upset, and shocked when jac and i broke up. i guess i always expected it from JSH. But i guess it's just this time of year...i always seem to lose it. i guess it's just spring fever. :)
I talked to GS about the situation today, and really out of the 4 guys i have dated in the last 7 years, 3 of them have been clingy jealous guys. they were all pretty shy. Those were 3 of the worse relationships for me...i completely changed and stopped being the outgoing person i was. the one the was the better, was still not good, but we had fun. we were so much alike and so outgoing. he's really the only guy to ever break my heart. since then we talked, we're friends. and i love that. that relationship completely changed my life because that was when i became a christian. not that it is confined to one single moment. but the stretch of that two years is what shaped me into the person i am today! Good times. Good times.
i dont know why i continue to ramble. especially about the past. im over it. i love my life now. i just keep screwing up again as if i were 17.
my friends tell me im such a great person and im a good leader, and im this or that. the only thing that hasn't changed since 17, is i still dont see any of it. one day maybe all that will change.
Posted by Keri Starr at 3:42 PM 0 comments
